Henri's People Finder Page

Is it sad that I haven't gotten over Mer yet? Or does that mean my heart just beats faster than most people's ever will? Whatever it means, I'm still in pain over this and am tortured by the possibility that I made a huge mistake. I know that I did at the time what I thought was right but hindsight is 20/20 after all. Oh well, Mer's not even talking to me anymore so it's not like I can take any of it back. I just have to live in my misery.

It's been tough to even muster the energy to run a people search. I know, it's crazy. I'm always down for a people search, except now I all I can think of is Mer. It makes me want to look up her address and relatives and phone number. It's kind of stalker-ish and weird so I've been keeping myself away from the online search engines. The fact remains that I need to find a person to share this misery with, otherwise it'll drive me crazy. However I'm in such a conundrum I can't even bring myself to do that. I need some milk and cookies and television. Just comforting stuff that can tide me over until I manage to get out of this funk and start living again. Oh Mer, I wish you would pick up my phone calls. I have so much to say!

Did I make a huge mistake? Ever since I dumped Mer, two things have happened: she hasn't stopped calling me and I feel really bad about dumping her. I tried to make it clear that it wasn't her (even though it was - how could I date somebody who slobbers that much when they kiss) but I don't think she believed. She was always pretty good at reading me, even though we were together so briefly. I'm so confused now. I feel like maybe I should have stayed with Mer and tried to help her out. But maybe that would've just made things worse by giving her false hope. As I say - major confusion.

To distract myself I've been making a huge effort to find people who enjoy doing a bit of people search, like me. I think it'd be great if I could keep my mind of stuff and really focus on something I want to do well in. This guy at my local Starbucks the other day asked me for help finding old military buddies. I don't know why he thought I could help, but I'm going to give it my absolute all. It'll give me a chance to hit the library, do some research, and get away from the places Mer knows I'll be. I'm not hiding from her, I just need...to be alone right now.

I knew it was too good to be true, as is everything there ever was that was ever any good at all. Yeah you guessed it, Mer and I are no more. I initiated it. I just... couldn't take how inexperienced she was. Seriously, this may seem cruel but come on. How old is she? I feel like there's probably something irreparably broken inside of her and I don't want to be the one to try and fix it. I feel I would just make it worse because what do I know anyway? If I had been smart I would have run a serious background search on Mer, maybe several, before I agreed to start dating her. It's not that I didn't like her but I should've known my judgment was bad. It's always bad. That's why I'm such a good people finder: because I rely only on facts, not intuition to figure stuff out. Yeah well to cheer myself up I think I'm going buy a new television, a flatscreen maybe. I've found a good resource for fellow people looking for a site that will present flatscreens demystified.Check it out on Consumer Advocate.

Mer and I have started doing a pre-summer workout together, and it's been awesome. I have already lost five pounds, and I swear to god I'm alreayd more cut. She got us these vitamins called Damage Control Master Formula, and I have to say, they make me feel pretty energized. What else? Um... I don't know! I'm just so happy that there hasn't really been any drama to report. Mer and I just love being together. It's amazing. We search people together and find people, and she's even interested in reading all the people search related articles I send her way... like this one: finding the child you put up for adoption. I don't know how I got so lucky finding Mer! I know it's horrible, but it still makes me wonder IF and WHEN the other shoe is going to drop. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I'm enjoying this cloud... Mer (!!) experience too much to come down.

Things are looking up! I got over my weird doubts and fears about Mer's prior relationship status, and I now understand that even if I am her first serious boyfriend, it doesn't matter, because she loves me and that's enough. Oops, did I give it away? Yep, we are in love. WooHoo! It feels so good to feel this feeling called love, a feeling that I haven't felt in a lot of years. And, I guess Mer has never felt such a feeling before feeling this for me. Boy, that was a whole lot of "feeling." Too much? Maybe, but I'm feeling this feeling so hard that I bet you can feel it from all the way over there! Haha, I'm loopy from feeling this love so you'll have to excuse me. Despite all this feeling I've found time to people search still. And I have the great links for you to use to help you find person and people search. Or you can just use this great engine to find people now. Or if you're just feeling like a laugh, check out this Giant List: Fictional Candidates For President.